I wonder if anyone still reads this!

I started summer school, and I love it! Everyone there is really nice, and… it’s just a wonderful environment. Sometimes the homework load is harsh, but other than that… everything else is good!

There’s a guy in class who I have a crush on. I HAVENT HAD A CRUSH IN FOREVER! I think it’s really funny and cute haha

Summer is finally here, it seems like it just passed though…

I have to admit, my marks were way better than expected. An overall average of 91! That really makes me feel good about myself.

Summer school starts on the 3rd of July, so I’m pretty much off school for a week before I have to get back into the routine of things. That’s fine though… I can’t really complain about routine in my life!

I’m spending a lot of time thinking and organizing my thoughts lately… it’s not a bad thing, but it’s like no matter how long I sit and think, my thoughts don’t get any clearer. Like right now, there’s something on my mind, but I can’t pinpoint anything. And not in a good way either… it’s kinda sucky.

Hope everyone is having a blast of a summer!

How can it be that I love to write, but can’t even find time to update my own blog?

I used to go online and when I see that people hadn’t updated their blog for a week… I’d wonder why they even had one if they just neglect it. This is how I can be slightly hypocritical. I don’t want to neglect my blog… but it just happens sometimes, you know?

Thanks to Becky for leaving that comment, that’s what made me write a new post

So what has happened with me?
Same old, nothing new.

I spent some time the other day reflecting on the past year. The new friends I’ve made, the ones I’ve lost and the ones that have put me through my worst. It’s been a helluva ride, not gonna lie.

Exams will be over in… two days. I’m aiming for that 90 average… perhaps I can actually get it. I hope I can! It would make my dreams come true… seriously!

This summer, I’m writing letters to my friend who lives a few streets down. Me and him have become really good friends these past few months, and I can’t wait to see how much greater our friendship can become.
I’m also doing summer school, I can’t wait for the new experience to meet new people, though waking up early isn’t exactly appealing…
Working after summer school and all through August, it’ll be some good money though!

This summer, hopefully I’ll keep everything up to date! I’ll try and make the most of it!

Quick Post

Thank you for your comments, they’re very much appreciated.

My situation isn’t going much better, it has stayed the same the whole time. She’s still being horrible to me, and me and my friend just barely talk now… it sucks.

I don’t know if I have done anything wrong, but I don’t think I have. I hope I haven’t either.

I’m more stressed about this than I have ever been about anything for a while now.

Even my marks are starting to suffer from this ordeal.

It’s not good.

So I started off this month with a blog entry. I talked about how much I loved April, how I have such amazing friends and etc.

Well I can end April saying this has been one of the worst months in a while.

If you read my last entry, I mentioned I was having trouble deciding on a gift for my friend. Well I decided to buy him a bunch of candy and just made him a card. The day after I bought everything, I was on facebook, when I realize I had gotten a new message. That’s usually rare since I usually get wall posts. But I got a message, if you don’t know for facebook messages cannot be seen by others, and it’s from a girl who I don’t even know who threatened to beat me if I didn’t stay away from her friends boyfriend. Which is my best friend.

I was so scared after receiving that message, I could lose my best friend because his girlfriend thinks there is something going on between us, which there really isn’t. The day after, I was in a horrible mood at school. Nothing was going right. So I decided to tell him what had happened and he told me that his relationship was on the rocks. They argued constantly because she doesn’t trust him. He’s really the best guy ever and he would never do anything to hurt his girlfriend. Ever since that, whenever me and him talk at school, his girlfriend is extremely pissed off and I always tell him to cheer her up again. I’m not going to mad if I get ignored once in a while, but they really can’t afford to argue any more.

I’m in a bit of a pickle here. She’s really pissed off with me. And I don’t want to stop talking to my best friend in school just because of a misunderstanding.

Sure, I could talk to her, but from what he’s told me, this time she’s being very unreasonable and isn’t listening to his side of the story. If she doesn’t listen to her own boyfriend, what are the chances that she’ll listen to me?

My next negative thing is that my other best friend, he got really mad at me because I didn’t invite him to come hang out one day with my group of friends. It’s hard to invite him along everywhere when he doesn’t really fit in with us. But he doesn’t get how tight knit the rest of us are already. And as harsh as the things I say to him are, they’re all true. I feel a bit bad for saying them, but at the same time I feel like he really needs to know. So I told him it all, and he got upset. But he apologized after. A lot of my friends say that he likes me… which I really hope he doesn’t because I’d hate to hurt him even more.

Lastly, my mom’s cousin, I’m not sure what you would call that, but early in the month she was diagnosed with liver cancer. Her body has been on a roller coaster, some days she’ll be perfectly fine and awake, while other days the doctor says that she’s in a coma. Everyone is scared for her, the doctor says that she could be leaving us anytime now… I went to visit her once, and she was really skinny and frail. I haven’t seen her in the past weeks because my parents won’t let me, they say that they don’t want me to see such a sight. I’m really scared. Her cancer has begun to spread and has affected her brain already…

Let’s just say April is not my best month…

Sorry for the plainness of this entry, too lazy to bold stuff